Back to basics

I have not blogged for a while. This is due to a lot of cxrazy things going on.

Firstly i have had to reevaluate my life fully.This is due to a wake up call from a Convention and the effect of my friends at church who are leaving very soon. I need to really sort out my life and understand whats going right and whats going wrong and as to how to fix it. I need to do this NOW otherwise it might be too late. Also this is because to some personal details going on. I am also evaluating which friends i can trust and which to not.

SeSecondly, the stress of work and Exams. I am so annoyed with people at College due to marking and the difficulty of some work and the deadlines. Next year i need to make sure that i know efficiently the way people want i tmakred how they want the piece of work to be and as to ghow long they have to mark it and how long to fix it by. Also i am aliitle concoius of trying to stay within the points so then i can stay within the top group for Software. Also i am rwally hoping that i have got my English GSCE so then i can get a really good job but i dont think i have done enough thoiugh to get it and i really dont want to reatke it next year.

Thirdly and finally, i have been creating more songs but they have been for a specif purpose which i cannot name here but they are actually happy for once which is a change for me. Ohter than i am findign more strangth writing songs than actually singing them. Also i am also trying to start the rest of my book so then it is more gripping than it sounds at the moment. There will be more notice along the way when its moved on that it is now.

So there you go. I am back upon Blogger and my life has really changed this year so far and its not even half way through the year yet. I hope that the rest fo the year goes on a lot calmer than this half.

I Need........

Panic! at the Discos New album Vices and Virtues is out now and it sounds so good but i have no money........

Apparantly

Acording to Stephen i am vocal in everything..........

Just why again?

Well i was feeling really down on monday and i dont know why. I keep on having these dreams with him in and i just fear that him leaving on a mission will ruin me. But i know that its right and that hes my role model he just doesnt truely know yet. So i cried all monday night thinking about him and the spirit that he has. I want to be like him but i dont know how and i dont know how to solve all of my problems and i dont know how to tell him that hes my role model. Any help please.......

Change

Well these last two days have been verry different.
No seminary and no getting up early and no tirednes. But i got to at least see some of my friends yesterday which was good.Also i got another B on English coursework which is really good! Also weve started website design and i dont know wether to start with a table web site or a div tag web site? Any hints at what a Div tag is and how hard they are?

At the moment i am feeling quite lonely and distant. I dont know why. I also feel like something isnt right but i dont know what it is. Perhaps i will find out sometime soon. Any ideas?

This Week

Well several things are different this week:

Firstly i thought i had to get up at 5;30 for Seminary to get to Wing but then thought no i can go untill May now due to no Transport getting me back to Aylesbury.

Secondly: I havnt been bothered to do my jobs on time and even sleeping in untill at least after 9am. This is highly unusual because im usually up or awake by 7 or 8 am.

Thirdly: I am sliipi9ng into my old ways- Just the tv and the computer. Nothing else. No reading, drawing or puzzle solving just wasting away on technology which is damaging my self.

Fourthly: I appointed Cat and Vick to come around on Friday and to pick them up usual time of 11am. I get a facebook message saying are you all right on thursday? Now im confused but they can still come over tommorow. But i remember saying Friday.....

Fifthly, Mum got a text yesterday saying if io text Bobyn i wouold get fish and chips for tea. So after 59 days ofnot touching it i picked it up and texted Bobyn. When she got home we had the most humungous fish ever!!!! And a mountain of chips.., well thats what you get for knowing the bloke at the Chippy at thew Mermaid in Walton Court....:)

Lastly My parents are going away on a soppy weekend./ That means no parents. And the granparents will have to cook and ill have to do more jobs. Great not.

I hope next week can return back to normallity. Oh and i havent written another song yet. BTW cAN YOU SNEEZE OUT CAKE? (blame teatime convos) Oh and lastly YOU ALL LOST THE GAME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:):):):):):)

So what to Post?

Well yset again dunno what to post> Any ideas?

The next couple of weeks are going to be different. Apparantly we aint going to London tommorow anymore dunno why. No free stuff then or any useful information. Cat and Vick are coming round in the holidays which is something to look forward to. i also have an assignment due in on the same day they come over. After half term i get to sleep in because i have no lift back from Wing but this is gonna be difficult because i will probably forget to do any work instead of getting up early. I also need to start rewriting songs because i havent done it in a while either.

SO there you go stephen. Is that long enough?

Stephens Fault

Stephen said to post something so i shall.







SOMETHING
:)

Well yes.......

I have found my ONIONS.........

Last night....

Apparantly mum likes sitting on dads suitcase........

For My Friends

Id thought id write another song but id thought id write about my freinds so this is what i came up with. Hope you like it!

Overthrowing Turned Tables

One day can change us all
One friend will answer our call
Our worlds can clearly change
But we will stay here anyway

Blinking out of control
Thinking deeper about to let go
Cause to reflect someone cares
Now we can share all that’s there
We don’t have to live in the shadows anywhere

One time we look down
Everything will feel so brown
Everyday we open up
But some days are not out luck

Drinking now to forget the truth
Thinking clearly now were in view
Cause to open up my eyes
I can see beyond the field of disguise
Now we can share all we have is someone who cares

One day we can fly
One day we can die
One day we shall cry
But our friends will be by our sides

Taking time to be here
Thinking now about nothing to fear
Cause to say what’s on my mind
You will listen cause you’re inclined
Now we can be together now I know this is fair

Why?

My freind got the Melchezidek preisthood on Sunday and that means ive now got his responsibilities which is very confusing being the Priest quorum of the Aaronic Preisthood. Hes about to go on a mission. He is a good freind but why am i crying for him? All ic an think about is when i cried at Efy in the summer and hugged him for comfort. So why am i crying for him and crying about feling the spirit?

Vanished

Christmas came so soon last year and the grandparents came down resulting in me slleping on the floor for a week and a half.

We had a non disastrous dinner which i dont know how on earth that happened and i got loads of presents.

I got:

4 books (HUnger asnd Lies by Michael Grant, a book by Terry brookes and a qi book of ignorance)
A wallet
Chocolate
A Calendar
A colouring book
A Cd (Take Thats Progress)
£30 which haas been spent on 2 tshirts, trousers and a sketchbook and pencils.
Socks in a box
Sudokucube
A mini sketch book

I am verry grateful for every one who gave me pressents and love you lot verry much.

The year vanished with a peaceful quiet evening doing nothiong much except for watching Strong Man.I have made several resolutions:

Get a job
Obtain Merits in IT
Pass my English GCSE retake evening course
Start to shave
Continue in early morning classes to the best of my ability

Ok thats pretty much it.